Her bilirubin level dropped 2 points so that is awesome news too!!
Now for some more not so good news... She's had 5 events since last night. :( They all happened while she was eating so they put her on a 3 day watch for that. She's still in the middle of a 5 day watch though, so as of right now she's on track to come home on Friday. I don't think that will happen though. :( I think it's going to be awhile longer before she gets the hang of eating and breathing at the same time.
I know that it is definitely best for her to be there right now but I want her home so bad. It breaks my heart knowing that when she cries I am not there to cuddle her or take care of whatever she needs. I wish I could be there all the time so I could comfort her after she has an event, even though it scares the crap out of me when her monitors go off, I want to be there to cuddle with her and let her know everything is ok. I just want to take care of my baby, both of my babies, and I feel guilty that I can't be with them both all of the time. I want to be so bad.
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I'm so glad to hear she gained back three oz. and her levels dropped. Yay. :) I know it must be so hard Jamie. :( As a Parent you really do just want to simply be there for your kids..hold them kiss them..whatever you can do for them. And I know it must be so heartbreaking for you not to be able to do that right now all the time. You and Dave are doing an amazing job..I know it is probablly really hard trying to juggle your time and everything..you both are very strong people and I think you guys are doing great. I know the time cant come fast enough for the day that Ashlynn gets to come with you guys. I really hope she gets the hang of eating and breathing at the same time real soon. Praying and thinking about all of you everyday. Love you guys so much! Oh and I absolutly LOVE the pictures. They are so sweet. :) You look beautiful..and Ashlynn looks so tiny and cute. *Brandee
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